you know its time to get with God when the only place you feel safe from life, people, work, and the future is your car.
That is where I am at. I do not feel safe, or fitting in any other environment other than my car with my new found heart of worship. No questions, no way to fall short or to disappoint, to upset or hurt, nothing is asked of you, no one is staring or judging your every move. That weight you carry is non-existent for that 20 minute drive.
I am so happy! I am so blessed! This is not about sadness or discontentment. It is simply what its is. Kinda like my whole world is dice in a yatzee barrel, each day not knowing what it will land on. Unpredictable, unsafe, un-comforting.
One thing i have realized, my prayer is that one day i will have a place to worship where I can sing with the heart and voice that i have in my car singing Jesus Culture.(this worship team is teaching me how to worship and love all over again!) Will i ever? That is my heart’s true desire… to feel appreciated… for my light to radiate his glory from worship! My voice to be confident in that i am directing my whole self to him! Will I? Am i blessed enough? Is that really what my calling is?
LORD, ”I give you my worship! All of my passion! I give you my whole heart! All my devotion! here i will bow down, say that i need you, Here i will worship! say that i love you! OH HOW I LOVE YOU! I want to know you! Let your spirit overwhelm me, let your presence overtake my heart!” AMEN
_love unsafe and worshipful
Girl you just keep on keepin on……I know you will. It stinks to find yourself in a shakey, unsafe feeling place, but keep your eyes open to what he wants you to do. When we are weak– He is strong!!